Hapy CNY!!!!!

According to my calendar, CNY and St. Valentine day happen to be on the same day this year... IS that true???
I remember when I was younger ( yes, there were times when I have clear skin, slim body and wonderful hair), I used to celebrate CNY with my paternal cousin who lives in Tuaran. It was a much anticipated time of the year for me, second to Hari Raya and Xmas. Why, you may ask. Well, that's the time when people give you Ang Pow... And you don't even have to do anything to earn it!!
I don't know when or why, but it seems that I just stop celebrating it with them. Every CNY, I just spend my time watching TV shows ( Yes, during CNY, a lot of gorgeous chinesse celebrities is on TV!!). And this year, MTV will celebrate the CNY with a lot of interesting Programmes such as the Jay Chou and A Mei TV special, and many more ( Iklan sikit..).
This year, tough, I have some wishlist for the CNY. And I'm not sure if I should have a list. Do people make wishlist for CNY??( and since I'm not chinesse, can I have a CNY wishlist??). NEway, since I already make my wishlist, I'm posting it... SO here goes nothing..

1. I want to be Rich!!! (so people, do send me a text message wishing me a prosperous year!!!)
2. I want to be Slimmer... ( I want to be able to squezze into my size32 jeans without any discomfort!!)
3. I want to travel around the world... and hopefully, with a pleasant companion.
4. I want to be able to do all the things that I've planned to do last year, but never got the chance to actually do...
5. I want to party a lot more this year!!! ( yes, everything about life is worth celebrating for... so keep the invites coming!!!)

and the list goes on...

Anyway, Happy Chinesse New Year everyone!!!!!

My latest Achievement.

Hello February!!
This year, I'm about to turn 21... And with that I would gladly write about my latest( and probably most wonderful achievement...)
Since my birthday last year, I have done a lot of thinking. In my 20yrs of age, i have been such a person that's hard to pinpoint.. And the reason for that is the fact that i am such an indecisive person.
" Fast food Vs Real Food?" - I'll eat trash if it'll save me from having to make a decision.
"Auburn or Chestnut?" - I'd go bald if i have to decide.(though chestnut hair with auburn highlight would be a better solution).
Even when i was ask about my ambition, I can only answer them with "ntah, sia tia taw..."... And when I actually give them solid answer, I believe they are prepared to hear about my new ambition the following day.
A lot of people convince me that indecisive-ness is completely OK. After all, they're not part of the 7 Deadly Sin ( But if anyone is making 8Deadly Sin list, it might as well be the eighth). I remember one of my classmates in primary school. It was during recess on a beautiful friday afternoon (cheh....), and me and a couple of my friends were talking about our ambition, when one of my friend( a female friend), said that she want to be a hunter. To that, all hell break loose - with laughter, of course. It's not her predatorial instinct to become a hunter that give us our biggest laugh of the day, but it's her confident face as she mention it that makes it so laugh-able. and also, the fact that she is so small back then, wearing an oversized size s Baju kurung and a matching Tudung.thinking about it these days, I can almost see her with winds blowing on her white Tudung, with a thick forest in the background and a befitting tigress roar as the soundtrack( well, a litlle imagination never hurt anyone). Her indecisive past has give her such outrageous ( and quite out of this world) ambition, but these day, she is well on her way to became a teacher - The Educator, the nurturer of tomorrow's very foundation. . I just hope that she'll never forget how we hate that annoying teacher with a grating voice - so she won't turned out becoming one of them.
Well then, what is the achievement that i'm so proud of??? Curious much??
Well, quite a few Fridays ago, I was thinking about what color would I wear to my First Grammy awards ( Again, A little Imagination never claim a single soul). And the nominees for Best Color are....(Some montage music in the Background):
1st - Black and Red Combo. ( the theme color of my Imaginary nominated video. So Tasty.).
2nd - Purple and Black.. So mysterious.
3rd - Blue. with blue. Like the sky above, and the Ocean in some unpolluted beach.
4th - Any colors that won't get me in trouble with the Fashion Police.

Thinking hard as I could, I finally realize something.
I hate Ocean blu. anyone wanna see me clad in Ocean Blue color? they might as well just kill me. Maybe because I see them a lot, or maybe because I used to wear them a lot before, but Ocean Blue strike me as a lame color. As that realization sink, I rush to my Laptop and write this post, feeling very proud. I mean, it took me 20++ yrs, but finally, i know what my turn-off color is. Isn't that a cause for celebration? For me, it's a wonderful achievement worth celebrating - and I celebrate it by writing this post.

God knows, How much time do I have in this natural life. But one thing for sure - it'd be a boring life, made amazing by my discoveries about myself ( and the world). who knows - maybe next I'll discover my most Favorite Color, or even my Dream J.o.b...
Anyway, dear Life, Give me a nice surprise!!!

Deliriously Yours,
DK. XO.

PS/ If i was ever going to Grammy, I would wear a Black coat with dark red lapel, paired with a nice black jeans and a burgundy shirt inside the coat.

Ringin in the new year.

It's that time of the year again!!!!!
What time???

DECEMBER!!!
It's been december quite a while actually.. in fact it's almost January!!

on december 4th, i had a wonderful birthday party.. attended by a small but wonderful crowd, too.
thx to my Event Planner team, which consist of my Cousin Clarice, my two sister, we managed to pull off the party very well, turning my idea of Red/Black atmosphere into reality.

enuff bout my b'day.

this year, I officially join the big Two-O club... Along my way towards becoming 20, i have face many problem, which sometimes make me think about giving up on life. Also, i've done so many things ( for the most part, it's not something that i'm proud of!!).

so, in the spirit of New year( almost new year, actually), i really hope that everything would be better next year.... Better health, better wealth - in general, better me. Also, i really hope that i would be able to embrace everything that i am, and everything that i'm not(????).
so, evrybody!!!! Lets say it together...

"Bring on 2010!!!!!"

( kenen la)

The Good/ the bad.

What's it like to feel so superior when you have everything under your control?

And how does it feels when everything doesn't go well, because you, well, suck at things?

when i woke up in the morning, i usually complained about my pimples - Its like an On going developmental project. they keep coming, and never disappear.
But, as I fix myself a lunch, i usually do it proudly - Cause i make a pretty decent meal( i'd rate it 5/5!).
Yes it's true. When I complained, i complained as if everything was hell. But that doesn't make me hates myself, cause i always find something to like about myself( even if other might not like it.. But, hell, who care.). In fact, i believe that everyone is born with an equal proportion of good and bad quality.
while you're cheering for your super talented and gifted self, you usually find your bad quality. And while you're grieving over your good- for - nothing self, it's super possible that you'll discover your hidden talent.

So, in the spirit of accepting the good and bad quality in me( cheh..) and to celebrate the day i update my blog after a long while ( kenen la), it just seems befitting for me to make a list of things that i'm good at.. and also the thing that i'm not really good at.

the Good.
1. i can cook like a real chef, and i am not even a qualified cooks. Just imagine if i got myself in a cooking course.. I might improve even more.
2. i can type real fast.
3. i can sleep for a mere 4 hours, and still look fresh, like a wide eyed bambi.
4. i have a legs that goes on forever. ( Or so i think.. Anyone agree with me??)

the Bad
1. i hate brushing my teeth in the morning. So I only brush my teeth in the morning if i was going out, or if i know i was going to make a close contact with a human being.(But i never missed brushing my teeth in the night,)
2. i snore like a pig. It's shocking, but it couldn't be more true.
3. i have flabby stomach. everytime i stare at it in the mirror, it's as if they were saying "we're here to stay...."
4. i have assymetrical eyes. And i like the left one better.

Writting your hearts out...

Have you ever felt so broken, you speak like a fool?
Or so loved, that you speak the words of a poet?

Well, I am one of those so emotional, the one that can actually be read like an open book.
Frown translates to anger, Smile translates to happiness, Tears translates to sad.

It's embarrasing and annoying.
So the tricks? Write my hearts out, obviously.
by translating each and every emotions on a piece of paper (some find that computer is better), you spare yourself the embarassment of sudden tantrum, or the embarassment of choking tears.
Better yet, write with colors.. Red for anger, Purple for lust, Bright yellow for happiness, depressing blue for sadness.

What if it didn't work?? Scream your hearts out..(but then it'll be just the same as a tantrum right???)

Find my writting quite nonsense?? well, I feel so messed up, that's why.

My recent Obsessions.

I recently got obsess with watching TV(gaya2 org teda kerja..)- And I'm so committed on watching Akademi Fantasia 7 every Saturday night at 9pm. To begin with, Akademi Fantasia is a competition to search for a perfect performers(Or so one of the lecturer said).
Before this, I have this Idea that singing-based reality shows are mere craps- you only needs A Good Look and attractive personality to win it, and no talent needed- cause the audience SMS is the verdict. The Audience, most of whom know nothing about singing, will decide whether or not they stay in the competition-via SMS.
However, on the previous season of Akademi Fantasia, I was so impressed by one particular Student. She is not particularly the most physically beautiful participants. But, the student by the name Stacy, Really pack a punch in each and every one of her performance... Her renditions of No doubt's Don't Speak and Mulan Jameela's Makhluk Tuhan Paling Sexy* was the most memorable, I think. That being said, all her performance was strong and memorable, too.
With the memory of the previous season, I make it a point to watch Akademi Fantasia 7 religiously. But last night, what happen is quite surprising. Rubisa and Zizi was eliminated from the show.
Last night(Sat, Apr4th), Zizi stole the show when she ride a motorcycle on the stage. All dressed up ala Rocker/biker chick, she pack a punch singing Amy search Songs- She got the perfect voice to sing the song, and a right get up to match.
Rubisa, being one of the young mother in the competitions, Also steal the light with a ballad number, Tiada Lagi...
Judging from the critics, Their performance was a Job well done- minimal mistake, powerful vocal.
If some people think their performance was bad, some other students do worse performance from them(some even got the same harsh criticism week to week). How come they're not eliminated?
Well, as the Akademi Fantasia Host said last night, The Audience Vote determines all.. Some might say that these post of mine are merely a words of bias, since Both students that were eliminated are from Sabah(I myself are Sabahan). But no, This is merely my opinion that came from my observation. And furthermore, i'm not rooting for any students.
So, After this rather unfair elimination, am I going to stop my Saturday night 9o'clock routine?
well, I think I'm still anticipating for next week edition. Furthermore, that's the rule of Reality Show right?? Expect the unexpected

Lessons From Others

Recently I got my Driving licence(finally..)-Yeah!!!
So now i basically do nothing now....except duduk melanguk depan TV.
If i want to pursue study, the session will only starts in June/July. Part time Job? I suck when it comes to taking direction from other people.

So, in the emptiness of my life these days, i reminisce my school life.
in so many ways, school is plain hateable- what's with all the school regulations, the homework and all. But now that I'm no longer a student, it's kinda funny to think about how school life was. I mean, on what level of life you can claim to be worried about the piling homework and Assignment, but still have time to chat and hang out with your friends?

Then, in the spirit of reminiscent(cheh..), I remember the person that i admire most.
This person was my senior, but left to pursue study in X college on the 22ndSeptember2007- a few months before the STPM exam... First, it sounds stupid(konon la). I mean, leaving for diploma a few months before your STPM exam? common la Bro... You have been studying for your STPM for about one++ year ma...
But the following year, when all his ex-classmate(who happen to take STPM, unlike him) take their STPM results.. WHAM!!! their made it..With Striking colors-Their result was marked with the redness of failure.That's when his choice to abandon STPM for diploma sounds clever.
It then came to me- He made his choice quite late. He could choose to go to college right after his SPM,instead of leaving to college after a year studying for STPM(and then abandoning it).
But, its also one of the fact that made me respect him. He dare to make a choice, which brings quite a drastic change to his life.
On the same year that my senior leaves to further Studies in That Particular college, I also try out for the same college(at that time, i was already a few months in Form six).. I was accepted for January 2008 sessions, but i declined.
The main reason why i declined the offer is the fact that i was too scared with the prospect of living alone in a foreign place(what a Stupid reasons, i know). Besides that, i was too overwhelm with my ridiculous thought- i was so convinced that the only reason I am interested with that particular college is the fact that my senior and my friends(my ex-classmates during my SPM year)was also studying in the same college. With that, i continue studying for STPM...
This year, when I got my STPM results, I kinda regrets not accepting the college offer(sobs..)
So, taking the lessons from Mr. senior-who-left-STPM-for-College, I conclude my long crap(excuse of a story).
1. There's nothing wrong with making your on mistake, but you don't live long enough to make your own.. So learn from not only your mistakes, but from others as well(in this case, my senior mistakes.)
2. Dare to make decisions. Sometimes, when we're making decisions, we will be confronted with other peoples opinions. Some may object our decisions, whereas some may try to influence us to change our decisions; all the while using 'Love" and "Care" to camouflage their true intent. Don't fall, Just stick to your decisions, cause for better or worse, you'll be the only one taking the consequences of your decisions.
3. Don't write a super-long post, cause in the end, your eyes will be tired and puffy(for staring too long at the computer screen).
4. Still reading eh?? habis dah....