Life and Everythings About It

Have you ever felt Everyone around you reject you for who you are?
Have you ever felt trapt in yourself cause no one would accept the real you?
In our super short life, we're most likely to experience these kind of things.. When the people around us keep telling us who we should be and how we should behave..
I've been in a more silly,annoying situation. When almost everyone I know ignored me because I don't behave the way they expect me to behave.As much as it hurts, and as much as I felt suicidal..I didn't do anything stupid(cause if I did, I surely won't be posting this crappy blog today..).
With all the bad things happen to me, I felt like I did't belong in this world, my future and my fate seems vague..And at times, I kind of loosing my grip on my faith.
I stop talking cause no ones listening, I stop smiling to the public cause They didn't see me..To put it simply, I let other people behaviour towards me determine my behaviour, I let others rejection of me block my true self.
But then, I come to realize.They ain't gonna hear, so why I should put myself in silence mode?
It's not like they gonna see me, so why I should dismiss my smile??
They didn't see me..But that's not the reason for me to shut myself down.

These day, I'm still not the most outspoken people around, and I'm not actually the kind of person with a demanding presence. But, there's one thing that my 19 years-young life have taught me.. That is,don't ever let other's attitude towards you get in your way of being yourself..And don't Let anyone tells you how you live your life,or tell what you should be.

-Just Another Crappy Blog from DeLiriOusKifLey-